Been a while, huh? Thoughts on the daily, but not committed to words. Tis a shame, and I’m ashamed.
What can be said?
Currently frustrated with the lack of upkeep on the end of my aquariums as time becomes ever more precious of a resource. In a short span of time…I have acquired almost 10 new tanks, most of which sit unused, nagging at me with their possibilities. It’s too infinite to start, almost. I thumb through the pages of old aquarium literature. I wish I could treat each tank as if it were my first. With a direction and purpose and equal excitement. Instead, I sip coffee and contemplate how much guidance my situation really needs, while my back aches and I hesitate to pick up a siphon or get to it.
It’s also one of the coldest weeks imaginable for Michigan. So cold, the very exposure to the outdoors for even 10-20 minutes is beyond painful. Yet amazingly my home harbors a 70 degree tropical wonderland complete with live plants, exotic lizards, and Fish from every equatorial habitat. I love it so, and wish I never had to leave for two jobs or school. Yes, finals week is nearly done and school might be a memory for a small while. But I’m still working on so much. I still want so much. Mostly, I want to move so much and get the windows down on an 80 degree day and turn back time simultaneously. I think the season drags me down more than anything.
Even this blog suffers. Although still in its youth. A premature death to the written word that I had longed to share all this time.
I just wanted to say hi.
And also that I’m still fighting.